Sad Times

This weekend has been... well I'm not really sure how it's been. Yesterday was nice being able to actually go and see my parents and few friends but I really realized just how much I really miss how I used to live and it also makes me even more impatient for me and Timothy to get our own place and start our lives together out on our own. It's gonna be hard but I think that I'm ready to go out and start it... well not really ready. I don't think even the most prepared people are ready but it's what I want to do. I think right now I just miss the familiarity of the people and town I grew up with. I gave up practically my whole life just to come and live with Timothy and now it seems like I can't even go and see my own friends and family because of his family. I get so frustrated about the fact that they want me and Timothy to spend all this time with them but we can't even spend a day with my parents. A lot of nights it almost makes me cry.