The Weary Traveler

It's a busy night and you can hear the remnants of the kitchen cleaning up and getting ready to leave for the night. Children are playing in the halls and a group of old high school friends sit by the fire discussing times gone by and their families. As I'm sitting here, all I can think of is that I am tired. I'm tired of working for a life that I'm not living. I've had plans to do fantastic things but unfortunately to make it in the real world you have to work to survive. This seems like such a twisted way to live life. I'm also tired of dealing with the people who can't seem to take life seriously. I know that after my first statement this seems contradictory. What I mean, in fact, is that I'm tired of the people who don't understand that tomorrow is never a guarantee. I'm tired of all the negativity that I am dealt by this everyday. Mostly I want a life that is filled with moments. I want to look back on my life and be proud of the life that I lived because I did everything I wanted, good and bad. I want to be able to say that I've been to all the places that I have kept hidden in box for the eventual "some day". I want to be able to say that I fought to make my place in the world and make it mine, not that I allowed the world to beat me into submission simply because it was hard. We have have fears in life, but what truly makes someone fearless? Spiting fear is what makes you fearless. Even when fear and anxiety are bearing down on you and you think that you may not make it through, you are fearless for continuing to try. I want to be known as fearless and I never want to feel tired and beaten again.